Sometimes I miss you so much, it makes me nervous. So far away yet so close. Too many things to hold onto but to break just a matter of time. Time, the biggest player of all. What lies within? What do we hold onto if not the fact that pain is universal? Felt the greatest of love, returning the favor with pain of a magnitude I did not know before. Habits build over years, little things only you and I knew, dusted off into air. In a state am I left hanging, between what I want but still can't. What is this restriction? Why is everything so fragile? The voices of your laughter keeps me up. To a time when the moon would sleep and the sun would not rise, to a time when time would stop, to a time when nothing else mattered. If everything was good, we'd still be sitting sipping coffee, sitting near the river watching the sunset, rain wouldn't touch us. I eat, I sleep, I go to work but I am not me. I am not here. Set me free.
For everything that there exists
There is pain associated with it.
Pain that is felt like never before
As if the world no longer exists.
The world, devoid of happiness
Deep within, but without purpose.
There does exist, nothing but pain
As people, live not in happiness but in fear.
Bleak is this life
Bleak is everything we've believed in so far.
I fear the oceans will dry up
Even before I see the waves touch my feet.
The sand has engulfed me
Down goes my heart, sinking with each passing day.
Pain is unbearable,
This love I never wanted.
This love I received.
This love now I don't know what to do with it.
Memories created in every street of the city
In the coffee cups of cafes
In the chairs outside the coffee house
Where do I hide?
Hidden is you within me.
All lies but a love that is true.
As much as I try,
This maze keeps me messed up.
Like pain eating me up
Like love has unloved me
Like nothing before
Like nothing after.
(Like everything else I'll leave this incomplete)